So a little background as to why I want to write a blog…………
I have always had a lot to say, a curious mind, a deep thinker and an emotional being. Im constantly re-evaluating my life.
I became overwhelmed with the thought ‘who am I?’
What do I like do?
What are my hobbies?
Finding me or Nemo
What is this all about?
I love being a mum, albeit it I found it the hardest task I never planned to take on, but I have tried to be the best parent I can be. I haven’t been perfect, far from it and over the years people have taken cheap shots to ensure they have told me just that!
I have made poor decisions but I have also made great ones.
However for the last 16 years I have been just that, a girlfriend (to some total shit bags) a big sister to six younger siblings and a mother.
Now I am aware that is not the biggest feat- and many people across the country have done the same. I’m no hero, I am nothing special but in the process of being something to everyone, I have lost my identity. In fact, I am not sure I ever had one!
So after some late night thinking, I decided to quit my job and attempt to do some soul searching.
I wanted to:
1) Start a blog
2) I wanted to join some clubs
3) I wanted to lose weight (or at least attempt AGAIN)
4) I wanted to give my brain a rest
5) I wanted to walk my dogs
Instead I have had a difficult time finding and searching for my identity.
Today it dawned on me, I have an identity!!!!!
It’s just mixed up with all the other important roles in my world. I need to take time to unravel those roles and in the centre of them- there I am.
Any way enough rambling- I just wanted to give some context to why I wanted to start this.
As time passes and I write more; it will naturally give an insight into who I am. I will use this space to vent, moan, to celebrate and sometimes just air out my thoughts, effectively a diary.
So long for now and remember Decent bra and proper knickers you can’t go wrong.