As the new year begins and I’m on holiday with Melissa… making efforts to ‘find ourselves’ and get out of the rat race for 7 full days……I enter 2019 full of promise and grateful that I get to learn more about me..
But for me, I need to reflect on 2018 in order to ensure I don’t enter the new year heavy with regret and bitter with hurt….which of course is easier said than done.
I learnt that you just never know what life will throw at you. I learnt nothing is guaranteed.
I learnt that real friends and family are my most the precious thing to me. That nothing in this world could ever replace them or take that role. I am rich with the love that surrounds me. Sounds so hippie and cliche but so true.
I know I need to say ‘no’ more and yes less.
That I don’t need to please everyone. That I’m ok to set my own boundaries and not feel guilty about it.
I have discovered I’m stronger than I ever imagined. In fact I am pretty damn amazing and I don’t feel ashamed to say that.
I learnt that my heart is fragile with scars that aren’t visible to the human eye and can never really speak the true depths of hurt it holds.
However I also learnt that I can’t keep my heart safe without short changing myself.
So I need to just hit 2019 with my scarred but open heart and hope for the bloody best.
Most importantly, I learnt I like me! ❤️